Friday, November 17, 2006

This Quiet Place

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A long time ago, in what feels like another lifetime, I wanted to leave Pap. Because I'm not a quitter, when he suggested counselling first, I agreed, and we worked things out. In the course of that counselling, I discovered that I was suffering the effects of depression. I also found out that I've probably been masking these symptoms for most of my life. I prefer being happy to sad, and I'd do almost anything to at least appear happy.
Apparently, "acting" happy is one of the techniques this particular counsellor used to help depressed patients. She believed people are creatures of habit, those things they did repetitively became "their way". I don't know if that's true or not, I don't really care. What I knew and what I know is that I have no reason to be depressed. I am blessed in many ways and on those days that I feel like I'm acting instead of living, or when I wake up feeling as if the light has gone out of the world, I reach for the tools that set things right. An hour by the pond watching the fish, a trip to the park with the grandgirls, a funny story or a visit among my blog friends.
Its silly to think of blogs as "neighborhoods", but I do. This quiet place is the ghost town that was once a bustling small town. I like ghost town from time to time.

4 comments:

QuillDancer said...

Exodus ---

Hammer said...

I suffered depression and didn't know it. I really can't remember 3 years of my life.

I hope you are able to get through this and not to be worse for the wear.

As always I wish you the best.

Dr.John said...

When I took a course on counseling one of the first things they taught us was that your feelings will follow your actions. Do the things that make you happy and you will become happy. Overt the years I have seen taht work in th elife of many people.
Hey you have two blogs with the same name. How great is that?

smileymamaT said...

Hi Kat,
Your blog today evoked feelings of pale curtains blowing through quiet, empty houses....it's good that you know what to look for to "set yourself up" to feel lighter, or better, when you are feeling low...by the way, I havn't switched over to the new version yet, myself, and I'm wondering if I may be the only one? :) T